We enrolled Anas in
an Islamic science preschool when he was 3 years and a month old. Aku tak tau
la kenapa awal sgt, satu sebab memang family aku jenis antaq anak dari 3 taun
lagi, tambah pulak dia baru dapat adik, Mah was about a yr old at that time, so
aku pikir taknak la nyusahkan the babysitter jaga 2 budak yg aktif. Lagipun
dekat rumah babysitter dia tgk tv je, baik gi sekolah belajar socialize.
Ye dulu aku mmg niat
nak dia reti socialize je. Aku ingat masa gi Open Day kindy tu, wakil HQ kindy
tu tanya expectation parents, orang lain semua ckp 3M la hape la.. Aku ngan
laki aku nganga 3M tu natang apakah? Lol. Aku memang expect it to be a playschool,
sbb wakil HQ tadika tu kata 4 years old kami tak bagi worksheet, tak ada kerusi
meja bagai. We just let them play. Aku dah sukaaaa dah laa dah dia kata gitu.
Aku mmg nk suh dia men ja. 3 tahun kottttt walaupun ikut tahun dia dah 4 tahun.
Akan tetapi Anas susah gila nk pegi sekolah,
byk kali gila dia meraungggggggg ok… bukan takat meraung je jenis mmg pegang
kereta kaw kaw taknak lepas, macam nk kena seksa. Siap lari balik rumahhh
okkkk, sbb tadika tu dalam kawasan perumahan sama je. Masa tu aku pikir ala
transition je kot, eh bodoh jugak la aku dulu kan, budak dah tayang dah symptom
merana jiwa, aku boleh ckp transition je. Sampai tahap dia dah broken gila, mmg
redhaaa je la. Yang sedihnya masa hantar gi skolah dia takde that twinkle in
his eyes, you know the one that shows how gleeful he is, how excited and happy
he is. Takde. Dia pegi sebab kena pegi. Tapi masa tu half day je, at 12 aku
pick him up and send to babysitter.
Then the probem
starts, after a year, dia starts to get violence. I don't know why, was it
because of school, was it because he was exposed to gaming, or was it because
we were too harsh on disciplining him?
He gets soooo violent to the point that the babysitter cakap she never
seen any kids acted like this before. Ko rasa apa perasaan aku? Yeah he gets
violent with me too, sampai parents aku tak tahan tgk, kesian dekat aku. Pukul
sepak tampar ok. Aku pun tak tau mana dia belajar. Dia akan get violent when he
didn’t get what he wants. He gets angry and doesn’t know how to let it out. So
he resort to violent. Dia ok dgn my husband je sbb dia takut dgn abah dia.
Aku rasa aku failed
gila as a mother, mcm what did I do wrong? At first we thought maybe he felt
challenge by the abang abang dekat babysitter's house, abang abang tu dah besar
dah like standard 3 and 5 gitu. So kitorg pun anta dia full day dekat sekolah.
Sebab babysitter tu pon dah tak tahan dahhh, dia siap ckp dia tak boleh jaga.
Ko mampu? So full day la dia. Dia ok je tapi still masalah sama la susah nk gi
sekolah, keep on delaying nk ke sekolah, after 9 pagi lepas kena sound dgn abah
dia baru nk gerak gi mandi. All sorts of things.
And get this, the
school macam ajar this fast reader method lah, phonics method ni, katanya dalam
setahun konpem budak boleh baca, anak aku 2 tahun skolah kat situ kot tak boleh
baca lagi. Bila aku bukak je buku mintak dia baca, dia jadi trauma. What have I
done? Anak aku jadi trauma nk belajar.. Trauma about learning? This is just
wrong!
So I tell my
husband, let's change school. I'm going to find a playschool for him. Heck I
don’t care if he's 6 now and supposed to go to preschool, I'm transferring him
to a playschool. I want him to feel good about school, I want him to be eager
to learn, I want him to know that learning is fun!
So we move him to
Kinderkaizen. Aahh that one I save for another posting.
